Poetic Endorphins

For years now, I’ve realized that writing poetry releases endorphins in my brain; no matter how anxious or despairing I am, writing or editing a poem acts as a temporary anodyne, restoring my self-confidence. What makes me a poet evidently seems to keep me going.

Drought Rain

(AP) What could be the largest storm of the season is bringing heavy rain & snow to sections of CC with winter storm warnings for the Sierra Nevada & flood advisories from SF Bay south to L.A.

Here on SF Bay, during "The Rainy Season" (=Winter), it's pouring much needed rain during what they say is a drought: reservoirs are low, streams down to a trickle, etc. People are rain-shy here, but say "we need the rain..." as they go out into it. Today is Presidents' Day & the Santa Clara Sr Citz pool is closed; I fear getting wet, having grown up on MA Bay where I often had bronchitis, later, pneumonia. Deep inside me a sick little boy lies abed, watching a Vicks Vaporizer bubbling away....

NorCal pours, while its
weathercasters warn of
drought & reservoirs rise
from 49-52% of normal.
Californians airily say:
“We need all this rain”
& testily step out into it.
As a MA Bay transplant,
torrential rain, hurricanes,
coastal floods, all seem
normal to me as I watch
all this from 4 floors up
in Silicon Valley.

(18 FEB 09, Santa Clara CA)v7

Kiss my B&W

“Kiss my B&W ass” says Obama
asked how he intends to enlist more
Republicans in his stimulus bill. “If you
think nothing but tax-breaks work,
join Dubya in Dallas, getting wasted.
We have serious work to do.” No more
Mr. Nice Guy, Obama unsmiles; hardass
Republicans know their bluff's called;
McCain stiffly folds his one bluff hand.
Palin waves hers from way up in AK.

(10 FEB 09, Santa Clara CA)v9

"The Reader/Der Vorleser" (2008)

Last nite, at what Ivo called a 'civilized' hour (7pm), we went to West San Jose's Santana Row CineArts theater & saw "The Reader" (2008) starring Ralph Fiennes & Kate Winslett playing a Nazi-era working-class German whose 'moral idiocy' led her take job as an Auschwitz guard after one at a Siemens plant. Her tragic flaw is that on trial, she is too simple-minded to not admit that it was a voluntary choice (thus condemning herself) & to disguise that she was illiterate then (finally only learning to read in prison.) The more I tell you about her will only complicate your sympathy for her, but I believe that the only commensurate (forget just) penalty for her & her cohort of 6 female guards is death (for having 'selected' women & children for gassing), yet that isn't the sentence pronounced. Instead, she gets life (serving only 20 yrs) & the others 4.5 years each because they claim "she was in charge" (she wasn't, but doesn't dare admit her illiteracy - which could easily prove it.) Calling her life a tragedy only diminishes the tragic deaths of her victims, so what are we left with? Are we ready to be responsible for all the crimes we committed on our jobs? Or do we believe we’re trapped in History’s web? Did we perform our jobs just to live or only just to survive? If we finally realize our guilt, when & what type of justice do we administer to ourselves as both victims & victimizers? Which wrist do we slash first?

(08-9 FEB 09, Santa Clara CA)

Got starch?

How much starch (if any) does Obama
like in his dress shirts? Some? None?
How’s about a reasonable amount ? Is
he a no-iron, drip-dry guy? Ask his shirt:
“How much fresh sweat does he work up
on an average day?”(Answer:) Lots more
than you actually get to see, soaking in
sweat as he re-nominates his cabinet;
cool to look at, but sizzling in his suit.
Solution: do it all in a Bulls uniform.
Let righteous sweat fly where it may!

(04 FEB 09, Santa Clara CA)v6

Re@ding

People say they don’t read,
meaning books: thick blocks
of thin printed paper. But
everybody reads everything:
food-labels, traffic signs, manga,
newspapers, computer screens.
Like this one, right now.

(01 FEB 09, Santa Clara CA)v7

Tr@nsporting

I don’t drive; I just walk
to the nearest bustop, ride
to the local train station,
get off at the last station,
switch to the subway, catch
a bus going up-hill, walk
up the street, up the steps,
using the cities' innermost
transportational links.

(01 FEB 09, Santa Clara CA)v9